so the vma's last night were amazing...........adele didn't dissapoint bruno mars was amazinggggggggggggggggg and beyonce shocked the hell out of all of us  with her preganancy news she seemed genuinely happy and so did jay-z .... these last couple of days hvae been really eye opening for me .i'm starting to realize that i'm not me anymore. yes i know that sounds confusing but it makes a lot of sense  i know that with age people grow and change but i know for show this is not what its supposed to be like internally and i realized that i need to find myself. with that being said i promised myself this will be a year of change (good of course ,godwilling) and that after this year i will have found who i am and who i'm supposed to be within myself ...........so with that i bid you a goodnight